Friday, May 23, 2008

The Big Circle.

I have nothing running in my mind right now.I go through this state a lot when i dont know what i am upto or what exactly I am doing at that particular moment.I feel that numbness all over my body and my inability to get in terms with reality.Maybe,i am too tired mentally. Sometimes,I feel I want nothing out of life,I am good this way and stuff like that.
Everybody is busy in whatever they are doing.Someone is after the terrorists and terrorists are after somebody else.Everybody is upto something or the other.Actually everybody wants something...Maybe, nobody is satisfied with the way things are...that includes me too...
While we are scrambling from one deal to the next...who's got the eye on the planet?There is no chance to think,to prepare.All we do is sell future,buy future,when there is no future.
Many world's seem to exist at the same place.WE sharpen the human appetite to a point where it can split atoms with its desire...We build egos the size of football fields, grease even the dullest dreams with these dollar-green, gold plated fantasies until every human becomes an aspiring emperor...becomes his own god...where can we go from there?.

Many world's seem to exist at the same time.Millions are dieing on the streets.Some dont get food to eat.Some dont have this "home sweet home" thing to live in.There is terror,hunger,pain,suffering and millions of people who hope,just like any other human being,that one day they will have a life worth living.
But we continue on our titanic as it tilts slowly into the darkened sea.Those with cheaper tickets have began to be washed away.The rich are comforted by the knowledge that the life on the deck are reserved for the club-class passengers.The tragedy is that they are probably right.

But does anybody try to know or find out,what is this is all about?Let's kill science and all that technical complexity for a moment and try to concentrate on the question.Why are things this way?Why is Humanity this way?Can it change?Where are the answers?What are the answers?.


The world is so big and so small at the same time.Big it is and it is actually very small too because everything,these millions of issues and every idea,feeling,perception and knowledge is felt by every person individually.Sometimes,it is too much.And here am I,brimmed with this vaccum.Suddenly,nothing seems to affect me,neither an ongoing interesting semifinal match nor an important exam coming up. There is this terrible headache too.I want to give up.I am really tired.All i can feel is my breath,in and out.I try to find a reason,which makes me fight just for this day and I hope that when I wake up tommorow,I see a fresh new world and all this suffering just dissapears.

The wave rises on the ocean,and there is a hollow.Again another wave rises,perhaps bigger than the former,to fall down again;similarly,again to rise.In the march of events,we notice the rise and the fall,and we generally look towards the rise,forgetting the fall.But both are necessary.The waves are unified.There is a large ocean and waves seem to play within the boundaries.Some try to cross those boundaries,but the real beauty lies within the ocean.Thier existence seems more meaningful.What is the need to go beyond when the ocean in itself is Infinite?There is a rise and there is a fall just like the nature of this universe.Whether in the world of our thoughts or all the relations in this world,this movement of sucession,of rises and falls,is going on.Let's forget where we are right now,and let's try to gain this infinite strength from this big fall.But we must be unified.Just like this ocean.Just like when we feel the strength in the morning after those tiring attempts day after day.But this time we really must be unified.

Is that possible? I really dont know.I am too tired to think about that right now.

This is the same universe You and I live in.There is an ocean of thought and we all are particular minds.You are a mind,I am a mind;and the very same universe can be viewed from millions of standpoints.What's the difference between you and I?

Our bodies.We live in different bodies,we live inside matter.And this is what creates a difference in our thinking and maybe a difference in our needs to get out of the ocean seperately and kill peace.This matter conditions us.This limits us.DOESNT it?The ocean does exist and the waves are playing too,but we are too busy individually that we fail to notice the hollowness growing within.

Upon the same tree are two birds,one on the top,the other below.The one on the top is calm,silent and majestic;the one on the lower branches,eating sweet and bitter fruits by turns,hopping from branch to branch,is becoming happy and miserable by turns.After a time the lower bird eats an exceptional bitter fruit,gets disgusted and looks up and sees the other bird,who is neither happy nor sad.She forgets about this and keeps eating the fruits again.This happens several times and one day she hops to that branch and sees that other bird.She is shocked to know that bird was nothing but a reflection of herself.It was just that part of reality which exists in everybody of us.What is wrong in this idea if it makes us all equal?We really dont have to be ruled by matter.We have to go beyond that,I guess.We have to create infinitness within.What good is there in our individual pursuits to move ahead which cause nothing but pain and sorrow all around?

This will be great good to the world resulting from this unity,that instead of this world going on all with all it's friction and clashing,the aspect of the whole world will be changed,and,in place of fighting and quarelling,there would be a reign of peace.This indecent amd brutal hurry which forces humans and even countries to go ahead of each other will vanish from this earth.With it will vanish all struggle,with it will vanish hate,jealously and evil.This earth will become heaven,and what evil can be there when gods are playing with gods,when gods are working with gods,and gods are loving gods?

We must this create heaven here.Now.

NO more,will you look down with contempt upon the poor who walk the streets in the lonely night,because you will see even there the reality and unity existing.NO more you will think of jealously and punishments.THEY will all vanish,and love,will be so powerful that no whip and cord will be necessary to guide mankind aright.
Even death will be meaningful then.We will just live once.I dont how much long that will last.

I dont know what the future is,and I do not care too see it;I can see just one thing crystal clear before me:There is to be a battle.Exactly what form that battles takes,whether it's beautiful or bloodthirsty,depends on us.The point is that the battle must be joined.

We're running out of time.Even as we speak the circle of violence is closing in.Either way,change will come.I will repeat the same thing again.IT could be bloody,or it could be beautiful.IT depends on us.

3 comments:

Meenakshi Janga said...

'Beautiful battle'
Although an oxymoron but it does fire up a lot of imagination.
My fav. line would be this:"What is the need to go beyond when the ocean in itself is infinite?"

Get serious about writing a book.
cheers! :)

plonk said...

Hi!
Chaitanya!!!
Whatever you've written is superb..i swear!
Especially the whole thing about 'the ocean' and also 'the bird'. You've covered almost everythin in this write-up and this feeling of wholeness is what i like.The message given out is with a deep meaning and still done with simplicity which i loved the most! loved your blog! happy to have someone with such great thoughts! take care.

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